Mom, I'm still in shock that your gone.I get upset and grab my phone to call you.You were my best friend,my rock,my world.This pain and emptiness will never be filled.I wish you were here with phenergan to stop me from this never ending nausea Ive had.The kids are devastated.They gave you a beautiful eulogy.They poured their hearts into it and worked on it for days.Mom, you were loved by so many,but most importantly by your kids,Bennie,and your grandkids.Me and Bennie cracked up about the way you would calm us down from panic attacks.When the reality of you not being here sinks in, Im in for a major one and thankfully your words will be in my head.I cant bear emptying your house out.The thought of it makes me vomit and my world starts spinning.Please give me strength.Mom I love you more than words can explain.How much you ask? To the moon.Forever in our hearts β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ